Parenting Priorities

Ella was off school last week for spring break and we had so much fun just having a few days to not have a schedule to stick to. We went to the zoo, had a couple movie nights with popcorn, and went to the trampoline park in Madison. Now that she is back to school this week, I am having a hard time getting anything checked off my ever-growing to-do list. It doesn’t help that Grayson is refusing to nap while Ella is at school, which is usually my time to get to work.

In November, I made the decision to become an ACE Certified Personal Trainer. I bought all the books and have been attempting to read and study as often as possible. The problem I am facing, is how to put the time in that I really need and still be able to focus on my kids when they need me. I am getting down on myself a lot. I have been a stay-at-home mom for over five years now. I forgot how to do anything else on top of it! I feel like it shouldn’t be as difficult as it seems. I know there are so many moms out there who go to school or work full time so I feel silly for thinking this is so hard, but it is! I have so much guilt if I am working on other things when I’m the only one home during the day. Then I’m mad at myself for not working harder. On the days I do decide I’m gunna get shit done, the kids are needier than ever.

The toughest part about being a mom is stretching yourself too thin. And I’m pretty certain we all do it every day. It’s easy to tell ourselves that we deserve “me time” because we do, but doesn’t the guilt always creep in? We want to be supermoms who can do it all. Maybe that means something different for each of us – supermom – but no matter what it means, it’s ok to not be her. I am reminding myself of this daily. The feelings of inadequacy can sometimes be a good thing, right? Because that means we care enough about our kids to want to be there all the time. We care enough about them to feel badly about the things we didn’t do, or shouldn’t have done, or when we handled a situation poorly…

Oddly enough, as I’m writing this, my kids are fighting with each other. I’ve had to leave my computer about five times to intervene and my patience is gone. The point is, it’s ok to mess up. It’s ok to get mad at them. It’s ok to take time for yourself. It’s ok to want to be away from them. It’s ok to put other things on hold to be with them. Motherhood is one giant contradiction. We can do everything in some moments and we can do nothing in others and it’s ok.

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These sweet people make every day worth living whether I’m frustrated  beyond  belief or over-the-moon in love.

xoxo

 

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Spring Cleaning

Every spring I feel the need to completely gut the house. Maybe it’s because we’ve never been in one place this long. I was so used to packing and moving from place to place at least once a year. I’ve never been really good at ‘settling in.’

*to back things up a bit, my husband used to play in the NFL. He was a free agent and we bounced around from team to team, from city to city for about 3 years. I know that doesn’t seem like a long time, but with a little one and being newlyweds who had lived together in college, it was such a hard transition to not having a home base and only seeing each other for a few days at a time every few months.*

Anywho, I guess that explains my need to be on the move. So this year I’m trying to focus on minimalizing. -that’s a word, right?- My husband gets irritated with me wanting to throw sh*t out, but it just makes me feel like I’m getting rid of negative energy in our home. Do you ever just feel like you have way too much? Too many clothes, too many toys, too much crap that literally just sits there because “you might use it someday?” I am sick of looking at all the things that are unused and unnecessary. The hard thing is, clearing out the kids’ stuff. They see toys from 2 years ago that haven’t been played with in that long and decide they are, once again, their favorite.

My method for cleaning this Spring is broken down room by room. The simple plan for each room is to make a pile of ANYTHING that has no personal value, and donate it. Seems easy enough, right? By the time I am through this whole house, I think we may have quite the assortment. (I will be doing deep cleaning in each room as well, but that’s to be expected -hence the ‘cleaning’ part of spring cleaning.)

Unfortunately, I have the itch to get it all done right now, but we leave for Ireland in ten days and I really really really shouldn’t start such a project when I should be packing, planning, preparing for babysitters, etc. So until we are back, I will continue to brainstorm the best ways to get it all done (with two kids in the house, nonetheless).

What are some of your spring routines?! I’d love to hear what keeps you feeling organized and clutter-free!

Prepping for vacation

This morning I woke up to a very stinky boy. I picked him up to change him and realized he had sh*t up his back and all over my bedding. Literally every layer of bedding – even the pillows. Yesterday morning, I woke up to puke in his crib. After back to back early morning baths, I am clearly ready for vacation on Thursday!

My husbands’ work offers an incentive through their region. Qualifiers receive an all expenses paid vacation. This year we are heading to Puerto Vallarta for five days! I am looking so forward to sunshine, QT with my husband, and a mommy break.

I love being able to stay home with my kids. Some days are amazing, other days are so stressful and irritating. It’s pretty unpredictable. Once in a while, it’s nice to take a break and just have some ‘me’ time (or some me and hubby time). I always am ready to leave but I miss them right away. This is the longest I will be away from Grayson. So I’m hoping I am able to just relax and enjoy myself and not miss the kiddos too much.

I will share photos and trip details when we get back!!

xoxo

Welcome

I am gunna take a stab at this whole blogging thing. So I’d first like to welcome you to my page and thank you for checking it out! Let me tell you a little bit about myself…

I was born and raised in Sterling, IL. I now live in Southern Wisconsin with my husband, our two children (Ella – age 4 & Grayson – age 1), and our Yellow Lab named Primrose. I am a stay at home mom and it is such an awesome job that I never in a million years though I would do.

I love music and I love to sing. I just started guitar lessons (thanks for the Christmas gift, honey!) and it is really exciting! My hope is to share everything with you all… from cooking to fitness, from parenting to traveling…. you name it! We have a really big year planned and it is going to be full of fun and exciting events and experiences. I hope you will follow along and enjoy it with us.

xoxo